TODAY lah! while doing duty at the FORBES global ceo conference. saw the richest tycoon in hk too and ppl i never knew about but had a total net worth of 80 billion... crazy....

catching people [granting sexual favours] in the act, keeping prostitution in check, hot pursuit on a subject armed with a parang after he had slashed someone, assisting in the scene where a car has just crashed into a makeshift shop stand.. its just another saturday night as an orchard npco. seriously... it cant get any more real. IMF's coming up... its gonna be busy. one thing to catch up on though.. is to be able to drive those rather run down police cars in an efficient manner.. heh

What was/were _ thinking when I/they/he/she/it _ ? ____

 

1. I ; spend all my time playing computer games and watching television during my free time that ive spent much less time on the bible and books or mags on current affairs [im working on it]
2. nike ; designed such ugly jerseys for season 06/07 that ive gotta order the away juve jersey for last season.. and I admit was really tempted by the chelsea one. [ yes its supposed to go old school and all but the man u one looks like its from kelme and the barca one… oh the barca one… just go take a look]
3. the Singapore idol finalists except for that Indian lady and hady ;  entered the competition… [that by doing their best it would make Singapore idol any less a singing competition than it already is?]
4. the casting crew of Singapore idol ; chose jacynta as one of the judges [when she cant even put a sentence together… much less coherently and constructively..  and which at the end of her two cents and eternity’s worth… the audience has to pause for another extra second before clapping and cheering]
5. criminals ; steal, rob, molest, fight, thrash people’s vehicles, lock babies in the back seat, cheat, come into Singapore illegally and do whatever crimes criminals do [I know “whatever crimes criminals do” covers those listed earlier]
6. drunk criminals ; do the things criminals do [which are the things listed in 5]
7. Drivers ; park illegally [that they could get away with it?]

"some people believe football is a matter of life and death. i'm very disappointed with that attitude. i assure you its much, much more important than that." -bill shankly

ive just finished my brief attachment with orchard neighbourhood police centre. my post of choice. a post i hope i'll get posted to on my posting day on the 10th of july. having not slept for more than 24 hours due to my 12 hour night shift, im tired, exhausted, but on the whole satisfied and excited.

 

its been a very interesting 3 days filled with many intruiging cases. im not allowed to reveal more about the cases but ive definitely learnt a lot on how to handle various situations. there was much blood and violence, there was an arrest, a chase,  there were blinkers and many police cars. it was cool actually being on scene with suspects and moving around town with much power vested upon oneself, drawing many stares. but with that said, the responsibility was and will be great. working in the npc under the guidiance of fellow colleagues was definitely more eventful and enriching than being in hta staring at books.

 

after a whole night of action and cases, i will never see orchard rd in the same light ever again. 6 am in the morning. yes the general mood is sleepy, but remnants of clubbers and what not are still lingering on the streets. some hail cabs, others just sit lifelessly at the pavement or at curbs along the road. others are just wasted bending over or lying flat out on the floor. later in the day standing at somerset mrt, seeing commuters stream past to their respective lives, i looked at them and wondered how much they had missed. how i used to be like them, oblivious to the fact that town, the very core of our country, was not only a place of great food, entertainment and shopping, but danger as well during the wee hours of the night. the danger of course, the police force will be more than happy to handle.

 

the way we look at places reminds me briefly of how we perceive people. it takes time, some longer than the others, to finally understand a person well, and that there will always be different sides to a person. just like how i didnt know that orchard would be so different late into the night. from now on, i'll never make quick judgements on people thinking that i know them, because sometimes i really dont. i'll take my time

 

i was told that in the npc, i'll experience life like never before. become more matured, way more. i sure as hell now believe it to be true. cant wait to be posted though.

 

warning: this post is full of bullshit, or in other words, totally out of point.

 

construction workers are cool. period. no not for their mannerisms, dress sense or whatever under the sun you can think of[ like how they hang out with maids at lucky plaza every sunday], but its the work that they do day in day out. from a single plot of land be it large or small, these people build from utter scratch, dirt, gigantic holes in the ground. brick by brick, steel bar by steel bar [that sounds wrong but heck] and with the help of some brutefully powerful machines, can construct an end product of your wildest or simplest imaginations. now each of them only contribute to a small extent with regards to the entire operation, but wow, the end products are what you can truly call rewarding and its there for all to see. one wall really makes a big difference! i really admire these workers and if not for their meagre pay might have considered a job in that profession.

 

which reminds me of a phrase most of us have heard of ' yes this is entertainment, but the job hazards are real, dont try this at home' . apparently this has some scant relation to the dangers faced by our valiant construction workers. another reason to admire these lads.

 

oh bron's going to melbourne to study urban landscaping. which is really funky cos i bet she's gonna interact with loads of construction workers in the future, not to mention grass as well.

 

i had my first taste of construction today, when i helped paint the new youth hub in church. it was a tiring 6 hours of my weekend break. yup painting doesnt even come close to construction, but i believe that soon i'll upgrade to building mud houses or kampongs with wooden sticks in a mission trip or something. on a more serious note, im really glad that this youth hub is being implemented, i can really see the youths in church utilising it in the future to just hang out, and with time be a place to thrash out issues pertaining to christianity. it'll be buzzing with activity! being a church with lots of 2nd generation christians, there are going to be many challenges, but with God's grace i'm sure we'll head confidently in the right direction.

 

inevitably, construction's gonna be a big part of my life. after all, doing dentistry is like being a small scale construction worker right? i just wont be working with bricks. heh

 

 

today's fathers day so HAPPY FATHERS DAY to every father out there! bought my dad the same kinda gift as my mom, which was a cd. corrine may's first instalment titled fly away, which i felt had some really meaningful songs. so much for creativity but im satisfied for the little time nsfs have during the weekends. really appreciate my dad for all the guidance and constructive conversations about religion and a host of many other topics. 

 

lovely passing and brilliant skills. quick counter attacks and clinical finishing. sublime long shots whistling into the back of the net. just a few things everyone can appreciate and enjoy from the fifa world cup which has started just a fortnight ago.

 

really, could we expect any less? so far results have been predictable but lesser teams of a supposedly lower calibre have really impressed with their willingness to move forward and score goals. its amazing how high the level of soccer has been and any mistake will most definitely be punished. in the most cruel ways teams which deserved better have been sent packing already. i just cant wait for the knockout stages of the competition! one eye catching aspect has been how young talents touted to light up this world cup have lived up to expectations, namely 18 year old leo messi who has only spent a little less than 15 minutes on the pitch and yet has 1 assist and goal to his name. my pre tournament favourites were definitely brazil and england but after watching most teams play their first two games, i believe that the stellar perfomances of teams which have qualified for the 2nd round has blown the title race wide open.

 

its quite sad that i'll miss most of the games due to stay ins at camp, but just the sound of certain upcoming fixtures makes it a lip smacking delightful feast in anticipation of the full time scores known through our handphones. ive just read a time article on this very world cup which has done more than just entertain and showcase the best in football, but brought billions of very different people from various backgrounds together. if you've researched on how soccer as a sport has grown, you'll be enthralled.

 

 the greatest sport of all time? hell yeah! and im glad im a part of it.

 

 

"so do you have anymore questions?"

 

"nope, i dont think so"

 

"you sure? you mean you dont even want to know if you've passed arh?"

 

"haha yeah definitely"

 

so my tester from police driving school handed me my test sheet indicating my score, or number of demerit points for that matter. i saw an 8

 

heh heh heh... i passed my driving test!!! class 3!!!! woohoo!!!

 

to be frank the test wasnt exactly the hardest thing since we had lots of practise under the scrutiny of the driving instructors [some were really nice and encouraging while the others criticised like their lives depended on it] of Comfort Driving Centre. but it was about overcoming nerves, being confident, and focusing to the utmost reaches of your eyeballs. i had a little of each i guess. slopes i had rolled backwards one too many times, s and crank courses which the car had to travel dreadfully slow, directional change, vertical and parallel parking where the poles and kerbs seem like mines in a war zone, and lastly the test routes which i could have killed not one but a few pedestrians on.  i had overcome them! abeit with comments like "is your car straight? dont be alarmed if you see the remarks at the end of the test" and the constant fear whenever that test sheet was taken out and marks written on it. i must say that im really happy and relieved!

 

God's really blessed me in the past few weeks i believe

 

anyway, my enhancement training for expressways and automatic transmission vehicles is due in 2 weeks, following which i'll have to earn my way into my dad's good books before he'll allow me to drive his beloved car off by myself. well, when that day comes... anyone up for a ride?

Show me the way i should go, for to You i life up my soul. Psalms 143:8

 

i got into nus dentistry!!!!!

 

sheer delight

 

praise be to God

 

'nuff said

yes im growing fat. for the first time in my life, figuratively speaking that is, im actually gaining weight. no not just 1 or 2 kg. but 5 kg!!! woohoo! dont get me wrong cos i still do my fair share of exercise daily, but i suppose its just the sheer amount of food that im putting into my body each day that helps me load up. im not complaining. really.

 

so my birthday just passed. theres been lotsa happiness these few days i guess, had a simple cake and lunch celebration with my family, the usual well wishes, and even passing my final theory test on that special day itself! with all the practise CDC gave us, it turned out to be surprisingly easy and we all passed despite all the fretting and mugging! im really looking forward to class 3 and if all goes well... it'll take just 4 weeks.

 

been really blessed the past week, managed to form a nice little prayer group of 3 with 2 of my squad mates. its nice catching up with them weekly and be able to talk and sing about christ and stuff rather than just cooping up on my bunk bed doing qt [being able to do qt in ns is already a big blessing in itself]. hopefully we can start reaching out to others with the limited time we have left!

 

anyway, ive just got my pay, some ang pows for my bdae, shopping's inevitable

 

 

 

its been 5 years, and another General Election has befallen us and ended, with the results being expected. [ hey that rhymes right?] haha truth be told, the last i remember of a general election was watching some results over tv mobile during the last election, and following my parents to my void deck to vote at a tender age of 3. my area hasnt been contested for ages! im 18 coming on 19 this year, but my election experience rose probably 100 fold for this one in 2006. you see, thanks to police national service, i was one of those policemen standing around at polling centres making sure nothing got outta hand. and boy did i see quite a lot. anyway, for certain reasons, i shall not elaborate further. heh.

 

just this wednesday i heaved a really big sigh of relief. goodness knows how much preparing for the ntu mass comm and NUS DENTISTRY interviews have haunted me. but stress aside, they finally ended to a rather fine tune when i received confirmation that i got a place in mass comm, and that the dentistry interview was actually fun and free flowing, with no one 'shooting' me. this was quite unexpected really, let me elaborate.

 

well, during my mass comm interview which was about 2 weeks ago, we were told there that applications have been really competitive, 1 in 5 or something, and i really kinda panicked. the essay and mcq test was perfectly ok but i wasnt my usual talkative self during the interview, keeping really quiet when they asked us what questions we had about school of comms and info [ that being the bulk of the interview] and doing a 'great' job with regards to introducing why i wanted to join mass comm [which was peppered with lots of stammering and stuttering]. in short, they were looking for really dynamic communications students. i showed none of that. so i guess i can count myself really lucky to get a place.

 

as for the dentistry interview, i was expecting some really mean comments and accusations like ' i think you'll do well outside dentisty' and such, but trying really hard to put my nerves aside, i had a really interesting chat overall with the 3 interviewers, who were from njc and acs respectively. what a coincidence lah! anyway, the questions ranged from all angles, and i kept smiling all the way, hopefully that helped! most importantly though, i felt that i had shown them who i really was and with that im really contented. results should come out in a week or so, dentistry is my first choice so im rather nervous, but theres no shame in not being able to get in, moreover it was a good deal of fun.

 

the NPCO course i suppose is now in full swing with elections duty ending. so lessons all the way from now with driving lessons in the night, ive passed my btt earlier this week, and am thoroughly looking foward to my accelerated class 3!

 

 

People say that love comes from the heart. i believe them. for a point in time i thought that it was a really stupid phrase cos every feeling and emotion comes from the brain doesnt it? the heart really just pumps blood incessantly round the body! ok that just spoilt the mood but yeah. a few days back in camp it hit me.. You know that feeling where your heart turns sour and wrenches all at one long go at the knowledge that you've probably lost someone you love a lot forever. or when your heart just starts beating so fast and you tingle all over knowing that theres someone out there who loves you with everything they've got? yup. love. it comes from the heart.

it poured...... like hell.

 

the officers were forced into a dilemma. they had called us down to the drill shed amid the incessant rain which had begun since 3pm. it was now 5.45. we were scheduled to begin at 6. was it on or off? 2 weeks of tough work had been put in, commanders voices had been run hoarse, our legs strained, arms tense, perspiration running down every inch of our bodies. i bet the air over our heads and under our peak caps stink. oh and one more, the soles of our feet burning so bad from training under the hot sun and just due to standing for too long at the same spot without trying to move an inch. we had rerun the process time and time again. on several occasions like today, the howling sounds of a lighting warning was heard. it was usually met with much aplomb and cheers as it meant that practice was over, but today i heard grunts of disappointment. yes this was going to be a simple parade, but our effort just simply could not go to waste.

 

parents and other loved ones were seated at the grandstand which was just in front of the drill shed, eagerly anticipating our entrance. they were probably wondering whether they would actually see us march. moments earlier, they had filed rather haphazardly around the shed upon seeing us march in from our barracks, each hoping to pick out and catch a glimse of one of us. some took pictures, others video.. of course! that was till they were cordially told to take their seats. instructions were meted out to instructors, and i was praying. 6.15, the rain stopped. how ept. immediately there was a command that said, "its on!". everyone clapped and fell into starting position. the rest is history. [take a look at the pictures]

 

finally after 3 months, ive passed out. i got my vocation at the 11th hour right after the POP reception, and it read NPCO, short for Neighbourhood Police Centre Officer. i pumped my fist in sheer jubilation as that was my first choice. thankfully i didnt become an instructor! half my squad had already been posted to police coast guard and special ops, a whole bulk in PCG in fact. those werent in any of my choices. shift work may be tiring, but at least i get to interact with people, see what the life of a policeman really is about, and also get my free driving license in the process.woohoo!!! heh. im now a member of NPCO 3, a select group of only about 45 people set to become frontline policemen. in addition, ive also been promoted on thursday to the rank of a corporal which makes me 70 bucks richer each month.

 

im really contented with the 3 months ive had in HTA, made lotsa good friends, learnt tons from officers, and have a decent understanding of law. its gonna be another 3 more months here [the same old mess food!! ahh!!!] before i actually get posted to a division but im really looking forward to it. ive got the company of about 10 of my initial squad mates so im not complaining. as for what im gonna experience next in another phase of NS life... im keeping my fingers crossed.

 

 

ahhhhh... the sweet satisfaction of having completed almost all the tests in the the police basic training course, which definitely included the big law test and defence tactics. ok, so i admit the tests werent that hard, but the very fact that there was preparation included and that additional stress factor being present wasnt something which was really welcome. but oh well, i can finally relax, sit back and recollect some ns memories over the past 3 months as we prepare for our passing out parade on the 7th of april. its been rather fruitful anyway since i got my gold for ippt and marksman for shooting! a personal achievement as pull ups have never been a forte of mine. anyway, 1 and a half more years of ns left to go!

 

yup, theres that slight chance that my ns life might just be disrupted as ive applied for dentistry as my first choice in nus, followed by life sciences and pharmacy. decided to take the bio path anyhow, and dentistry seems much more appealing than medicine as the course is shorter and the working hours of a dentist are regular compared to a doctors. having said that, chances that i will get into dentistry are really super super low [34 every year??] so im not putting much hope on it. just mark out my career path, choose a specialisation and be myself at the interview. its on that note that i feel that i'll end up in life sciences becoming a researcher, teacher or lab rat in the future.

 

posting for vocations in police national service are due next week or so, and everyone's really nervous cos we all really want to get into NPCO, or frontline policing, for its various apparent perks and the opportunity to have a good taste of police life. Your friendly neighbourhood policeman! ive also indicated interest in airport policing and the staff assistant roles, whereby the latter would give me time to pursue night classes or smth and be off for the weekends. after all, its still over a year of my life, and i had better use it wisely.

 

speaking of weekends, theres still the rest of today[sat] and most of tomorrow before i book in at 9, so its time to rush off and enjoy myself while it lasts!

there comes a period of time in an individual's life where one has to choose which career path to take, abeit through which university course selected. i have 3 weeks. HELP!!!

 

the a level results have been delivered, most are weighing up their options based on the number of A's they've obtained. some are even deciding which scholarship to apply for, bonds and all a definite factor to consider. apparently, with my straight a's and NO s papers, i do qualify for some scholarships such as that offered by singapore power and singapore institute of health or something, the best i believe is a local uni scholarship offered by MOE. at times, i do regret dropping my s papers, but in retrospect, if i hadnt done that, i'd probably be sinking down in my chair wondering why i got so many B's or C's. so i guess i'm not applying for a scholarship after all. its a peaceful feeling knowing that i can basically apply for any course of my choice, and with that im utterly contented. so far, ive narrowed it down to mass comm, bio chem or psychology. but with the NUS and SMU open houses coming up this weekend, i shall keep an open mind.

 

i can testify that unlike those basic subjects we've been faced with during our secondary or junior college lives, such as bio or a maths, the number of university courses are overwhelming and im still very much confused at this moment [even though ive said ive narrowed down my choices]. it doesnt help that people are passing out midweek, giving them lots of free time to ponder over this topic, while im stuck in camp doing pt. hah!

 

luck of the draw has probably placed me in police and im enjoying life there and the prospects that it offers me over the next 2 years. being in the army has its advantages too, as ive learnt. i did apply to be an SAF pilot, took the computerised test and passed it. unlike other police guys i know who have passed it as well, they didnt get further replies. coincidentally after receiving my results, i received a call for an interview with them on wed, the 2nd stage of the application process. they even sent me this letter with a red velvety cover inviting me to their open house! im honored but unlike army dudes who can enter pilot school immediately if they pass the following medical, i'll only be able to become a pilot trainee a year and a half from now if i my application were successful! yup and will have to go through bmt before that too! oh well, i guess despite the opportunity of sitting in front of a panel of high ranking dudes and trying to impress them, i shall just reject them now.

 

so thats one path less to take, but ive got many ahead of me. for now, its back to home team academy. live revolver shoot this week. MARKSMAN!!!

 

 

its been almost 2 months in ns, police national service to be precise. the same routines repeat time and time again, but somehow i manage to drag myself outta bed to the tunes of physical training, police defence tactics, drill, and the daily law lessons. yup we do shoot the revolver as well. dont get me wrong, its fun being in ns! people say we are slack and yes i feel that we are.. most of the time, but with my asthma which may resurface anytime, and the impending stitches i so usually get, im happy that God has placed me here where i get to fill my brain with practical stuff and be able to work out at my own pace.

 

ive basically been able to build up a lot of my general knowledge in what we call the Home Team Academy where TRACOM (training command), my police training facility, has been located. ive never read books at such an alarming pace and with so much interest before, or 'time' magazines from cover to cover during the free time that i have been blessed with. ive made new and blossoming friendships, and interacting with groups of people 24/7 has definitely helped me change some of the many character flaws which i possess.

 

but today is a day reserved for the unveiling of the a level results, yes, that daunting day which not many have looked forward to.

 

i expected 2 A's and 1B, the last subj could be anything. with that i would be contented. but i was wrong, so wrong, and have drastically underestimated the grace of God. queueing up for results are seriously the most agonising periods of your life. i'd experienced it during the o'levels and now was really no different. only this time, the results would have a significant influence my future and what courses i would be eligible for in uni. it was not just a matter of school placing. just as i was about to step forward to miss champagne for my results, jess called me and told me my name was on THE LIST. i jumped up and down not knowing how to feel, but i had to make sure..i turned, only for champagne to tell me that there was nothing surprising about my results as she had seen it downstairs. God gave me 4 As!!! it was something i had never dreamed of. All glory and praise be to the Lord. though helping lead me to that board of top scorers before i entered the hall could have saved me quite a bit of emotional trauma! while my squad shouted out for 3A's during marching which took place earlier this morning, i inherently shouted out for 4, teasingly. i never knew it would become reality. all i can say is that my heart is overwhelmed with happiness, thankfulness (teachers and God) and huge relief that all that hard work before has really paid off. to all those who did well.. CONGRATS!!!!

 

this phase of a levels in my life is finally over. though doubts of my future hang in the balance as i commit them all to Him, at least im going to walk into camp tommorrow a refreshed person with more zeal for national service activities as ever, i'd hold my head high (not the proud kind of high lah) with confidence in my stride, knowing at the back of my head, that the Lord i believe so strongly in, who has ultimate control over all, has shown me His awesome grace and mercy once more. maybe, just maybe, i'd now be able to get out of bed a little quicker.

i flipped its pages one last time, scanned through a few of the questions, and closed it shut. staring at the cover blankly, it read :"1000 Biology MCQs". this marked the last minute of mugging i would ever do for 2 years. the a level syllabus had befallen me, but i had conquered it with much aplomb. 2 years of hell they said. they were right. i had never mugged so hard ever in my life. 8 and a half hours a day for a period spanning over 6-7 full months just to get those facts into my mind and expell them during the common tests, prelims, and the big one.

 

to be finally released from that stranglehold wrenched around my neck [or brain for that matter] was truly liberating. in fact, i wondered why i was the only one that shouted a "yeah!" at the end of the final paper.

 

just a quick summary of the a's. they were easier than prelims, breezed through certain questions, but i still made careless mistakes [which may cost me dear]. at the end of the day its all up to the markers and how the whole singapore cohord does. but that i am not in control of. i had done my best and the rest i leave it to God. its great to have someone like Him to commit everything to. overwhelming peace.

 

the prom marks the first milestone in my following 2 years before uni, and i have to admit its tough shopping for the right outfit. the problem here really, is that for jackets, they all look so alike! who doesnt want to look pleasantly different from the rest of the crowd? with limited shops for men here in singapore, we are certainly not spoilt for choice. black, brown, beige, white, stripes, no stripes are just some of the endless thoughts streaming through my head in this exhausting decision making process. not to mention the money involved which is really my limiting factor here with so much cool stuff i would love to purchase. in the end though, i guess its most important to just get something that fits right and which you look decent in. to cut the long story short, my classmates and i have taken the last 2 days scouting around town for ideas, trying on suits and stuff, but no one's bought anything yet. AIYOH!

 

i just cant believe im so free now, it all seems so surreal, but im glad one of the most challenging parts of my life are over, and i cant stop dreaming about what im gonna be doing next.

 

 

 

 

Was watching television today and caught the new "tiger" beer advertisement which really impressed. well, for the simple reason that its impossible now for me to dislocate thoughts of tiger whenever jessica alba comes to mind, and that it really made tiger look refreshing! those poor lads in europe will be terribly disappointed once they've tried the real product for the first time though. advertising is a real intruiging industry, with all the creativity involved and entertainment provided. with a point to prove as well!

 

the elusive one hour of television every night. the motivation behind 8 1/2 hours of study every day for the past... months. my brain's too tired to count.

 

this entry today really materialised in order that i might activate my literary prowress once more, hidden at the back of my cerebrum in place of tons of bio facts, maths formulas, chem reactions and economic theories. GP scares me, cos ived failed my essay time and time again. i guess the flair of raising a relavant and persuasive argument still eludes me. oh well, at least it taught me that reading is really really really important for content! KIDS out there.. GO READ! no more computer games! or you'll fail GP....

 

its interesting how every bright sunny morning when i wake up at 8.15 like clockwork and go read the papers.. the front page can always be related to econs. what a way to start a day.

 

A levels will befall all we jc2s in a few days. im glad that its finally going to start, for the fact that its gonna end. All the studying, the sleepless nights and the stress will pay off i believe. i am ready for this big one. it all really depends how sharp and alert i will be at the moment itself i guess, its really not a question of understanding anymore, its how fast i can get the answers without making any careless mistakes. Monday seriously helped, when aziz, brian, gaius and i [the 'resident evil' gang who makes it a point to go out and play a week before a major exam like promos] went to watch the stupidest of movies called dreamship surprise period 1 [the top grossing show in germany] and played a few hours of dota. im finally getting the hang of that computer game whom most guys have gotten hooked on!

 

For all those who've always thought that NS would be spent in tekong, you might be wrong. ive been posted to the police academy! my initial response was really kinda negative cos the physical activity there's probably more slack which would deny me a chance to push myself and experience those cool obstacle courses, actually handling rifles instead of revolvers in the process. moreover, i had been to PA so many times before from my NPCC history! it would take away the novelty of the whole process. but ive learnt that there are its perks cos i get to work in neighbourhood police posts or be a police officer and be posted to headquarters, so that would be new as well! at the end of it all. i cant wait for enlistment!

where do i begin? its becoming increasingly hard for me to pick up another set of notes or exam paper with the prospect of having to revise the WHOLE syllabus AGAIN looming ahead. it brings along that aura of redundancy. irritating.

i did chance across a saying:

" behind every grey cloud..... is an even bigger darker grey cloud"

 

haha. nope, not that silver lining we've all been hoping for

 

ok so prelim results weren't so good, not good at all actually. In short, ive underperformed and have been thrown into a heap of confusion mixed around with utter disappointment. my minds filled with questions. how do i go on to improve from here? after the many tons of hours of hard work, is it possible? is it possible i'll be less prepared for a's than prelims cos i'll overlook a lot of things? how can i motivate myself to start mugging again?

 

my memory's seriously short term.

 

well ive done my best. the outcome was left to God's awesome grace and mercy. and i'll draw strength from the belief that its all going according to His big big plan. of course, the 2 year break of ns is only going to make this final push sweeter. the finish line is so close. i need practise.

 

 

Its amazing to find that sometimes, no matter how hard you work, nothing can be achieved by your own strength.

 

Which leads us to the only answer.

 

God.

 

Rely on Him.

 

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and peitition, with thanksgiving, present yourrequests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."